Sunday, August 10, 2003

spent my whole entire day at east coast park today. frm 10am to 5pm. like not xiong. was mostly in my blades all e time.. 1st was with nessa koh, bladed w her frm 10 to arnd 1230 then she had to go home. stoned at macs for half n hr [dun ask how.] was waiting for somebody to reply my sms but nothing came in, so i just strapped on my blades n went for a few strides.. until now i still dont have a reply. then stopped at pit18, for sammie's surprise bday party. like everyone there was frm rj lah! thanks la val.

zy, yq and zx were all there but they didnt say hi. like not dao. whatEVER lah. anyway i ate abit, slacked arnd n talked to michelle, long time nvr catch up w her liao!! heh. had fun today girl :) haha sam was so surprised, she started screaming.. she's cute lah. happy 17th samantha! love ya -hug-. love bc.

then i bladed to bedok jetty n walked hme frm there.. the walking got me thinking abt bc, sort of. i thought abt the 4 yrs we've had together.. the stuff me n mich talked abt reminded me of e sad fact tt we'll nvr perform again together. like, rgs choir concert was the last chance. n we're slowly growing apart.. i still keep in contact w val, clara, sam, mich n sometimes huilin/stace, but its like v hard to keep trying. like, it took some warming up bef me + mich cld actually talk properly n engage in full conversation? i duno, i guess tts how i feel.

mayb its cuz ive been meeting up w alot of rj ppl lately, and i always end up w nth 2 say. its just this lost kind of feeling, like ive totally lost touch in everything. dont understand what they talk abt either. its like, theyre speaking in some foreign language n im shut out of their little glass sphere world, peering inside n leaving oily nose imprints on the glass wondering whats going on inside.

really tired. both mentally and physically. still have to worry abt work, promos in 2wks for chem prac. and i dont know a single shit.

countdown to mx's bday: 3days!
feeling: lost. is there anything or not?


Mrs Brightside at 9:02 pm

{xoxo}