Tuesday, November 04, 2008

i hate it when i brush my teeth.

cos everytime i'm brushing my teeth, some new revelation will hit me and i'll be thinking to myself "mmm thats a good idea!" or "how come i never thought about it before?" and by the time i'm done wiping my mouth and coming back to the laptop i would have forgotten ALL about it. sigh, so much for inspiration.

anyway, today hasn't been very productive. my life is kind of suspended in some kind of limbo; there's something lying on the tracks and the train cant move forward until that's out of the way. I cant just roll over it, i must wait for it to get up and call me or send me an email - anything!!! some form of indication please.

Waiting is the most painful and yes, i remember ginny telling me this once before. the wait is always the most excruciating! ah...

From where i'm sitting at my laptop, i can see a couple of A4 boxes with words printed at the side and one word that catches my eye is "purpose". what is my purpose in school? what is it in life? what is life going to be like after graduating? yesterday, for the first time in my 22 years of life (actually 21 years and 358 days to be exact), i thought of what lies beyond graduation. financial planning. some say you start retirement planning once u begin your first job. not just working, but also saving and drawing out your own financial future. its just scary thinking about it and i think for 3 and a half years i have put off thinking about it until now, when i'm less than 1 month away from graduating. want to get married? want to buy house? want to go for honeymoon? want to buy car? It seems like going into adulthood (or specifically, married life perhaps some time in the future) would mean endless streams of paying off this, that and after, your child's education. and the next car, and the next house. the singaporean dream consists of this endless chasing.

its just so, stickly. why cant it just be "i work, i earn enough to enjoy, and i enjoy my work"? simple and sweet. haha.. c'est la vie huh. c'est la vie.

Tu est Sarkozy?

Haha got quite a tickle out of this one today. Enjoy!

Mrs Brightside at 1:31 am

{xoxo}